Willingness and Abstinence

If I am trying to be abstinent, this is a state of great frustration. If I am willing to be abstinent, this is a state of great humility.

Trying to be abstinent implies that I should know how but can’t come up with the right formula. A willingness to be abstinent implies that I don’t know how.

Trying to be abstinent involves condemnation. A willingness to be abstinent involves acceptance.

If I am trying to be abstinent, I am closed to guidance. If I am willing to be abstinent, I am open to receive it.

If I am trying to be abstinent, I will fear failure. If I am willing to be abstinent, even “failure” may be used as a learning device.

If I am trying to be abstinent, I will fear failure, and judge myself a failure. If I am willing to be abstinent and consciously choose to do so, God will empower my choice, if I ask Him or Her to do so.

If I am trying to be abstinent, a set-back becomes problem that is the result of me relying on my independent nature. If I am willing to be abstinent, no setback becomes a problem for I know I will be shown the way.

Trying to be abstinent places the responsibility on me. If I am willing to be abstinent, the responsibility is placed on God.

Trying to be abstinent implies resistance and struggle. A willingness to be abstinent implies acceptance and surrender.

Trying to be abstinent is an act of separation from God. A willingness to be abstinent is in a sense, like a prayer.