Finding the Strength

I’m a compulsive overeater seeking recovery, one second at a time.

When I arrived at OA 12 years ago, I was in bad emotional shape. I was only a few pounds overweight, but I had read an article with OA’s 15 questions and immediately identified myself as a compulsive overeater. I’d never thought I had a problem with food, but I did think I was strange because of my thoughts and feelings. Although I ate out of plastic containers because my food didn’t fit onto a large plate, I didn’t have any idea my eating was sick. I used to eat until I got sick and had to go to the hospital, but I didn’t know that compulsive overeating was an illness. I only knew I felt inadequate when I was with other people. A lonely sufferer, I felt ashamed and fearful of everything.

I entered my first OA meeting timidly. I didn’t know anyone there; but I stayed, listened and identified with what I heard. I began buying the literature and learning about the program. Even though I was scared, I kept coming back.

Each week that I attended a meeting, I became more convinced OA was the place I’d been looking for. During the meetings I found a Higher Power who was completely different from the one I was so afraid of. This new Higher Power is a loving God who always talks to me through other OA members, a God who gives me strength and courage to overcome life’s challenges. My faith and trust in him are growing every day.

During these past 12 years, I have faced many difficult situations, like losses and illness in my family. But my sponsor, my group and other OA members are always there to love, accept and support me. I want to thank everyone who was a part of my recovery and ask for the blessing of Higher Power. May he give us strength to always come back.

~ Maria, Brazil
From Lifeline Magazine